dear "big spoon"

building memories is a day

you're a seed because once

planted it never leaves. roots

grow further into once, lifeless

dirt and if these roots continue

growing and if one day they

are ripped up, goddamn will

it hurt.

 

so as I watch these precious

roots extend I hope ill never

see their ends.

 

because I need you like the

 roots need water. I need you

like the trees need the sun to

grow taller. I need you and

sometimes that's too much to

bare. I need you and that

leaves me fucking scared!

 

because I cannot stop the

persistent thought that

one day our truth will be

gone, shocked but the roots

will remain!... left to soak up

tears that dropped in moments

pain or the roots will remain

leaving me with vibrant feelings

that I will never feel the same.

 

so i'm hoping you can forgive me.